Thursday, April 20, 2006

Time for little update...

My poor blog has been left neglected for more than a month. So many things happend and so many things to tell. The holidays came and are nearly ending. The assignments piled up but were knocked down one by one diligently by me. The studying and revising are slowly building up but with faith I shall overcome it too. The assessment centre brought insights to myself that I never knew I had but at the end dampend my spirits and made me doubt my own abilities for a while. Nevertheless...I trudge on. I keep trudging. I complain. I do. I complain and I did. That's how my life has been in a nutshell for the past month.

Every night the thought of leaving this country and not being able to see the tulips grow again next spring worries and scares me. I was once so ready to be a patriotic Malaysian; to return to my homeland and contribute to our budding economy. But now...I long for the days to be longer. I long winter again. I lament at the ending of spring and the coming of summer for I know that my time here, in this country, in this country which I curse everyday is to be up soon. My job hunting here has not bore any fruit. But like a farmer harvesting nothing, I keep hoping and keep trying. Maybe one day I will harvest not nothing but something.....

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